Wednesday, June 20, 1888 Breakfasted with Mary and Calvert. She told me yesterday was Gussies birth day which I had forgotten. It was a comfortable morning. I came home by the 11.30 train which I barely reached as I went down town to make a purchase. I wanted to come up by the Powell but I had nothing to do and no place to go to and feel adrift. It is a lonely feeling to be in New York with nothing to do and alone. I have had a pleasant [sic] but it has stimulated my desire to travel and if I could afford it I would go West.