Monday, Aug 8, 1887 Another cool, fine day. I slept badly and awoke with many misgivings and full of worries. Mary and Sara say I must go at all hazards and we are going tonight. We have our tickets to Granger about 50 miles this side Carter--the cost to that point 64.60. I shall not be able to take enough money to return but trust to luck for that as I am obliged to for many things. I feel very troubled and my head swims, and I am very lame. O I hope I will find some relief out there. Weir & his wife and Mary Gifford called on us on their way to Minnewaska. They spent nearly an hour with us and Jamie took them up to the train. They are glad I am going. I always feel badly leaving home, and I have a homesick feeling now. I would not think of going under the circumstances just for my own selfish pleasure. I hope it will make me well and strong. We go at 9 oclock tonight by West Shore road.