Wednesday, June 15, 1887 Sara gave me some gelseninium [sic] last evening and I think I feel less "swimmy" this morning. I go thro all my exercises now and rub myself well taking about an hour. Dr. Chalker came last evening. He thinks me greatly improved and I certainly am but I fancy he thinks I may not entirely recover from this. I hope and believe I will. The weather remains cool, so cool this morning I put on my thick clothes. Josephine brought the key of my house last night and I believe they have gone. In some respects I regret to have them go for they took good care of my place which I am sure Tom will not, on the other hand I am able to pay Tom what is equivalent to $5 additional pr. month. I went over to my house and went all through it. It was empty and silent and looked so shabby and out of repair that it made me feel very sad. I thought of dear Gertrude every where there and of our early happy married life, so in contrast with these sad days. I tried to paint on some of my sketches and did work all forenoon but not with pleasure--it was only to do something. In the afternoon I went over there again and tried to paint a little picture of Mt. Katahdin from a little sketch I had but it was poor and disheartening. I cant paint feeling as I do now. One must be serene in mind to work with any result.