Thursday, May 12, 1887 When I came to my room after breakfast I found that one of the glass shelves in my china case had again fallen and broken a number of things among them a tall vase of Gertrudes, a Bohemian glass Mrs. Taylor gave me, one of the cups of the Sevres sett Oscar gave Gertrude, a Venetian vase Mrs. Church gave her, a smaller Venetian vase, a china cup and several champagne glasses. It made me sad to see the havoc among these treasures of my dear Gertrude. I cleared out the debris and then mended the cups as well as I could with white lead and set them away to harden during the summer. Mary wants Marion to go to Rondout with me and I wrote Sara she would come. Clarke did not come as he promised to look at my sketches. I do not propose to put myself under any obligation to him and I think he would like to put me in such an attitude, so perhaps it is as well. I wrote to Mr. Linsley that I had repaired his picture and would probably send it tomorrow. Am gradually packing up to leave on Saturday and with a sad feeling of defeat and not knowing what the future has in store for me. I am very troubled and unhappy. Called at Fred Nortons but found no one at home Fred having returned to his room. Julia Dillon who was in at Marys after dinner says he is very miserable and she fears he may not be able to sail on Saturday as he and Annie propose. They are to take a short trip to Europe. I went to the club. Perry was there. He said he had found six of his pictures down town which Bellinger had stolen and sold. He was an Englishman whom he and Bradford introduced at the club and who always seemed to me a transparent adventurer. He has developed into just what I fancied he might.