Tuesday, May 3, 1887 Days of utter and crushing weariness and trouble. I cant paint and have no heart or courage for any thing. George Hall called and we talked of the hanging of our pictures at the Academy. He is very much offended with Eastman. When he left I dressed and went over to Marys by appointment and lunched with them. Leta Brace was there. After lunch Mary, Calvert, Julia Dillon, Miss Tuckerman and I went up to the Reception at the Museum of Art and saw the new pictures which have lately been donated to the museum, the "Horse Fair," the "1807" and all the recent additions. There was a crowd of people. Poor Calvert. It must have been a trying day to him for the Park he did so much to create and the Museum of Art he planned and built are in other hands and his plan of the Museum has been set aside and they are at work on a new design. It was significant to me, showing for how little integrity and conscientiousness go in this country. He should be now the consulting authority in all Park matters, whereas they will not tolerate him and have actually appointed Mr. Olmsted and left him entirely out. But he is patient and believes his opportunity will yet come. I doubt it. We walked down to 59th St and saw how shabby and neglected were many things. Calvert had to go clear up to Bloomingdale directly after dinner with Marion. I spent the evening with Mary and went around to the club a little while later. Saw Pinchot a moment and came to my lonely room feeling very sad.