Friday, Apr 29, 1887 Down town to get some garden seeds, only a small share of what I meant to get. Received a letter from Mr. E. B. Linsley of Three Rivers Mich. to whom we sent the little picture. He likes it very much, but unfortunately in packing it which I thought I did very carefully I put one of the screws through the upper part of the picture. This was very annoying but I wrote him he had better send it back to me and I could undoubtedly repair it so that it would be as good as ever and if I could not I would either paint him another or refund the money as he chose. Have worked on my brook picture and I hope improved it but every thing seems so discouraging to me I have no heart in my work. I went with Mary and Marion to Will Bishop's funeral at All Soul's Church at 5 o' clock. Mr. William's remarks were very tender and sympathetic and the occasion was a very solemn one. Stoddard and Mrs. Stoddard went into the church just ahead of us and he looked so feeble, old and bent that I was startled by it. A little later I attended an artists dinner at Pellegrinis, cor 14th St & Irving Place. There were sixteen present, Hall, Ryder, Wilmarth, Gay, Pope, Homer, Tom Moran, Wm. Hart, Will, Perry, Guy, C. Y. Turner and Conant. It was very informal and enjoyable. Gay has just taken the prize of $2000 at the prize fund exhibition at the American Art Galleries. It is a great event to him but he bore himself very modestly. I also heard that Conant had sold his portrait of Beecher for $5000 and has an order for another. I am glad of these mens good fortune but it makes me feel ashamed that I have no success and shows me that I must do something or sink out of sight. I feel distracted and do not know what to do. I went around to the club a little while and saw Collins and had a little talk with him.