Tuesday, Apr 19, 1887 The storm has cleared and the sun shines warm and bright. Mrs. Folant came promptly and paid me five hundred dollars for the lot on Chester St for which I gave her a warranty deed, Girard as Notary public witnessing it. I talked with her about the plan which I am to furnish her and got her ideas so far as she had settled upon them. I told her I was inclined to assist her all I could in carrying out her plans and I think she feels I will do so. After she left I went down to the bank and deposited the check and attended to some errands. I felt better but still far from the happy state I have been in all winter. I realize how great responsibilities are upon me and as my pictures do not sell I can only look to the sale of some lots to meet our expenses. The snow is so deep I could do nothing about the garden and the Spring work and decided to return to N. Y. which I did by the 4.55 train, leaving home with a regretful and melancholy feeling. Sara was sorry to have me come as were Janette and Emily and I would gladly have remained. When I arrived I found various notes awaiting me. One was an order for one of the $50 small pictures from Mr. Linsley of Three Rivers Mich. with whom Bowyer has had some correspondence. He enclosed a draft for the amount and is to return the picture if it does not please him. I went over to the club and had some supper but not feeling well I came to my room early. I have indigestion which I can trace directly to my anxieties. I have thought of dear Gertrude as I always do in my seasons of depression. Then her loss comes to me with redoubled force and I grieve for her in unspeakable sorrow.