Saturday, Apr 2, 1887 Painted all day on several things. I have a growing sense that my pictures are becoming less and less popular. The way the have been hung in the Academy and by my friends admonishes me that I have little to expect, and as for selling anything, that seems a mere chance. Wood told me at the Century this evening that today (buyers day) the pictures all around mine were sold and certainly mine is a good picture and looks well there even to me, to whom my pictures are almost always disappointing. De Haas on varnishing day spoke to me of its brilliancy and fine quality and last night Whittredge spoke of it and said it looked finely and that he would like to own it. He referred to my picture evidently not having seen my other two as several others have done. The Reception at the Academy occurred tonight but I gave my card to Marion as I did not care to go but went to the Monthly meeting of the Century instead. I did not have a particularly pleasant evening partly I suppose because I was feeling sore over my Academy pictures. I do not feel pleasantly toward Eastman. He is on the top wave of popularity and success, and very justly so, but I am grieved that he would permit me, who am so full of anxieties, to be so unjustly and unfeelingly treated.