Sunday, Jan 30, 1887 Have been packing my trunk and making preparations to go to N. Y. tomorrow. I confess I leave with regret. Any change in my daily life now I undertake with difficulty. I have greatly enjoyed the winter here at home and I turn from the peace and quiet of this place with many misgivings. For thirty years I have made this same annual return to the city and to the same rooms. Now I am to change my studio, and undertake a somewhat heavier expense, but I believe it will be best for me. My father has seemed to feel sadly today. I think he regrets my going away and regrets a certain feeling of security and an absence from anything like responsibility while I am at home. Jamie and I are to go in the 7.40 train, he to go to his school.