Saturday, May 26, 1883 A warm day with the wind blowing strongly from the S. Downing and I immediately after breakfast went down to the Point by the upper road taking Park along for a swim. Went to the lower dock where they were loading a large schooner with coal. From there along the shore and by the brick yards and up through the field above the cement kilns to the region above Steep Rocks. The dogwood is in blossom but not such large fine flowers as down near New York. What we used to call the juniper tree is only beginning to leaf and some of the apple trees are still in full bloom. We came home through Ludlums woods this afternoon and I have been putting away my winter clothing and I have had a very melancholy feeling. I came across so many things to remind me of dear Gertrude. Most of the time here at home I have this depressed feeling, because I am not actively employed all the time and have so much time to think over the past. I dont know what I am to do here this whole summer. I want to keep actively at my profession and yet it seems so difficult with so many cares and distractions. Calvert came up by the 3.30 train.