Friday, May 25, 1883 Calvert and I with Perry went to see the gallery of the Art Union which men were at work in fixing the floor. Then I went to my studio and arranged to come home by 11 oclock train. I had a sad and melancholy feeling as I always do when I leave for the summer. So much may occur before I return in the fall and I have come and gone so many years that I cannot but expect changes, or keep asking myself if perhaps I will return again. I thought of dear Gertrude as I always do at such times and how in the spring she came there to see the Taylors when they sailed and never came back again. How could I have borne it if I had known what a few short months had in store for me and how wise it is that we cannot know. I arrived home and found it very lonely here but always sad at first until I get well transplanted.