Thursday, Jan 18, 1883 Began a picture 14x26 which I hope to send to the Springfield exhibition. Miss McCoy a poor girl from West Virginia who wrote me about having some sketches to copy called today and I left her 8 sketches. Mrs. Caster speaks well of her, but with her ill health and her poverty what a discouraging outlook, particularly as I fear she has not much talent while the best artists find it so hard to get on. Mr. Gill of Springfield called to get pictures for his exhibition. I agreed to let him have my Jersey picture and seeing the one I am at work at he asked for that. H. K. Browns nephew called. I called this evening on Mrs. Frances Weeks in their new house in 24th St. and had a very pleasant call. Since I saw her last she has lost her brother and her mother. I have had a very discouraged feeling whenever I have given myself to a moment to think of my affairs. I fear my responsibilities are more than I can carry and I cannot see my way at all clear. I am afraid I am entering again upon a season of dispondency [sic] such as I have so often suffered. Received letters this evening from Mary Gifford and Julia Wilkinson.