Monday, May 15, 1882 A letter from Booth which I answered. Took a walk over to the cemetery to see if the sweet brier on dear Gertrudes grave were living. I fear it is not. Went to Jansens grave and saw the faded flowers and the footsteps in the soft earth of those who laid him there yesterday. I felt most sadly and realized afresh how sorrow comes to us so surely and always so unexpectedly. Walked out beyond the cemetery to Jacobs valley. Maurice left in the evening to join the rest of the party at Albany but he had been drinking and so has blasted again all our hopes. I am ready to hear of any amount of trouble to him for he has not a particle of control over himself when he has any money.