Thursday, Apr 27, 1882 I work away but without any heart or courage having an awful sense of having outlived my time. I called up to see Whittredge but found him in great trouble with his picture. I think he had got it in a bad condition and he was distressed beyond measure. I tried to encourage him and think I in a measure succeeded, but I am myself in such an agony of anxiety that I can hardly encourage any one else. In the evening Bowyer and I called at Fred Nortons, who is ill. He had gone to bed but we saw Annie. Laura has given up going abroad this summer greatly I think to Gussies relief.