Wednesday, Apr 12, 1882 Still very cold. Painted all day on my larger picture and feel encouraged about it. I am working as hard as I can and trying to keep off unhappiness by keeping busy. Vanderlip came in. I showed him his little picture and he liked it. Calvert and I went to the club. I read in a life of Sidney Smith. He would not tolerate melancholy and recommended not looking too far into the future. With all his wit and humor he was predisposed to melancholy and anxiety. Coal gas was escaping from the club furnace and I felt my head getting heavy.