Monday, Apr 3, 1882 Took a walk over to the West Shore rail road near Wiltwyck Cemetery. It was windy and cool but in the afternoon the wind subsided and it was very pleasant. I had intended to go to Hudson but a telegram from Jas. Gifford on Saturday told me Mary was sick and would not be able to see me so I telegraphed I would not come. I see so much to be done at home that it seems almost hopeless to attempt any thing. If I had made my usual income I could have struggled through but now I seem to be baffled at all points. I am unhappy at home and every where. Came down by 6 oclock train in a very desolate state. Went to the club and got some supper. Parton was on the train evidently as full of trouble as I and we talked together of the discouraging state of Art.