Friday, Sept 16, 1881 Went down town twice. I get no word from Eastman in reply to my letter from Fort Halleck. Have concluded to send Jamies little wagon out to Sedgwick at Fort Halleck and ordered a box for it. I copied a piece of dear Gertrudes music "Would I were with thee" for Lucy. It seemed to me I could almost hear her voice as she used to sing it for me and the words were most closely associated with her. I walked over to her grave this morning. Some one, Sara it must have been had laid a wreath of flowers above her in anticipation of my return. Coming home where there is so much to remind me of her I think of her and feel that irrepressible sense of longing for her almost every hour in the day. Such a sweet reality to me and yet so far. The greatest satisfaction of my life is to think of her and to love her eternally.