Monday, Apr 4, 1881 Went over to the cemetery with Tom and took the covering off the stone at dear Gertrudes grave which I put on last fall to protect it. Wrote to Alice and to Lucy giving them a brief account of my visit to the medium. Came down by noon train. Mr. Laster put his niece in my care. Found a note from Miss Hillard asking me to spend this evening with her. Went to the Council for a little while and then to Miss Hillards where were Mrs. Jacoby, Miss Fidelia Bridges and two other ladies. Cold as winter and the dust blowing in clouds. I feel discouraged and sad and have no inclination to work. My pictures both came back from Springfield. It seems very difficult to sell any thing and there is so great need of my selling that I am greatly troubled. I cant think of my work, only of my sorrows.