Tuesday, Dec 14, 1880 [McEntee mistakenly dates this entry Nov 14] Tried to paint two little winter sketches recollections of something I saw going home but did not succeed very well. Called on Shattuck. He seems to feel very discouraged about art matters. As for me I am about in despair because I do not see what I am to do if I do not sell something soon. I try to shut my eyes to it but cant. Went with Mary, Calvert and Downing to the Academy of Music to hear the "Damnation of Faust" by Berlioz. There was a fine orchestra and a chorus of 500 led by Dr. Damrosch. There were solos by Mad'lle Valleria and three other male voices. It was very enjoyable and there was a full house. I come home to my loneliness and my remembrances of dear Gertrude whenever I have heard any music, which she so loved. Wrote to Sara.