Thursday, Aug 5, 1880 Went to the cemetery this morning. They are building concrete gate posts at the entrance. After walking all about I went out on the Common, feeling very depressed and wretched and lonely. I need companionship. Then I came home and went to my studio and painted a little picture from a sketch on "Sandy Stream". While I was at work Mr. Parish came in and told me about the antique bureau. After dinner I went down to see it and bought it for $18 and he brought it up this afternoon. It is a very nice one and worth much more than I gave for it. A card came from Ellin & Kitson saying the head stone was completed so far as it could be until I saw it. Am going down tomorrow by Powell. Maurice is in a wretched condition. I have not seen him for nearly a fortnight until this evening when Girard brought him home. The atmosphere here is most depressing and I cannot keep heart in it. Dear Gertrude used to suffer from these clouds. I have been reading her dear letters today as I do every day.