Wednesday, August 4, 1880 Rained all night and all day. I have felt very sad and depressed and as though I could hardly get through the day. I have been painting but I am so lonely and unhappy that I take no pleasure in my work. I had a note from Julia Wilkinson from Hudson telling me they have very discouraging accounts of Gifford who with his wife has gone to Lake Superior. He still has night sweats and keeps losing his strength and the Dr. there advises them to go home unless he begins to mend immediately. I am greatly alarmed about him and have a sort of presentiment that he will not get well. I also had a note from Mrs. Church asking why Julia Vaux and I had not been up also a note from the Editor of Scribner saying he had read my paper with interest but was disappointed with the illustrations, thinking they were to be from my oil pictures. Wrote to them that I had only two or three oil sketches of that scenery. Wrote to Mrs. Church and told her I thought I should not be able to go to Maine with them. Also wrote to Julia Wilkinson. Went to a concert in Kingston this evening got up by Lottie Anderson for the Church of the Holy Spirit. It made my think of the Esther days and of dear Gertrude who has been much in my thoughts today and whose letters I have been reading.