Tuesday, Apr 6, 1880 A dark day. Went up town to order a suit of clothes and on other errands. Came to my room much depressed and tried to paint but have done very little. Yewell came in and we had a long talk on life and immortality. He had had a bitter experience but he seems to have a cheerful temperament and can rise above his troubles. I wish I could, but sometimes it seems impossible. Today I have had an overwhelming feeling of loneliness and discouragement. Had a letter from Stedman in which he says much as he would like to it would be impossible for him to write the Booth article. Had a fire in my franklin for the first time in a long time. Went to our life class in the evening and commenced a new drawing.