Monday, Mar 8, 1880 Am getting my "Uplands" near completion. Tom Sawyer came to see me. I was painting on Gertrudes picture which I cannot make to look much like her. I love to try however and would like to keep at it all the time for I am with her then. Dear, darling woman. How my heart almost stops beating many and many times a day when I see some little thing associated with her and at such times a feeling of despair comes over me that I am never to see her again, for I keep looking forward as though somewhere at last I must find her. I had a letter from Mr. Chickering who is going to let me have my piano back for a picture for which I get $250 and I am going to let Alice have it until I want it. Went to the Council meeting. A letter from Sade telling me Pa is better and has ridden out.