Saturday, Feb 7, 1880 Painted. I get no better as to my state of mind feeling all the while that I am accomplishing nothing and troubled and unquiet all the time. I do not sleep as I ought waking very early in the morning with troubled thoughts. I went this afternoon with Mary and Julia to Mrs. Ripleys where I saw many friends and to Mrs. Boardmans. Julia Dillon dined with us and in the evening we all went to a party at Mrs. Thurbers. From there Calvert and I went to the Century monthly meeting. I sent my Don Caesar but almost regret I did. What good does it do except to be criticised. It is a mistake to exhibit anything but the very best.