Wednesday, Jan 28, 1880 Rainy and dark. Aldrich spent a good part of the day with me and Booth came in. Was glad to hear I had perfected my arrangement with regard to the mortgage. Called to see Joe Tomkins. He is getting on well, has sat up and been dressed and seen to gain strength. Went to my drawing at the Academy. Loop, Yewell, Bellows & Henry were there. Finished our drawings. Came to my room where I found a letter from Sara telling me that Maurice has lost his place in the Freeman. I could expect nothing else but it gave me a shock. I dread what is to follow and can find no expression for my sorrow. I would have written to dear Sara who is very brave, but it was necessary for me to sleep and I feared writing would excite me so I went to bed and slept until six soundly. I dreamed I saw dear Gertrude lying on the sofa. I had no sense of having ever lost her but it seemed to be a moment out of our past life, but only a moment.