Very much discouraged when I looked at my figure this morning. Booth came and I told him I was afraid I would have to give it up but he encouraged me and I went to work and made it very good finally so that I felt much better. But I am greatly depressed and most anxious about my affairs as always. I have a great deal of money to pay and do not see where it is coming from. O that I could get out of this dreadful drag which now I am so little fitted to bear. Came home early and wrote to Annie Lee about her porcelain which I went to see a few days ago. An invitation to dinner from Mrs. Thurber for Tuesday which I am obliged to decline as I go home on Tuesday.