I went to East Hampton July 2. Met Dr. Yule at the depot who introduced me to two young ladies by the name of [blank] with whom I talked until they got out. Met Mrs. Wheeler and spoke to her for a moment. Fred Withers was in the train with his family going to Speonk. Arrived at East Hampton late at night and went to Mrs. Rosalie Bakers, who received me very hospitably. The Weirs arrived the day before but had all retired. Next morning met them all Weir and his wife, & children, Mrs. French, Emma and Lily. Mr. Pell came next day. I remained there until Friday 19 when becoming unhappy and discontented I came away early in the morning without letting any one know except Weir and his wife. He begged me to stay and I wish I could, for it was a pleasant place, there were many things I wanted to paint and the people with whom I was thrown were very pleasant. We had a delightful trip to Montauk staying over night at the light house. Mrs. & Miss Washburn, Miss Blake, Lily, Emma, Pell and I. I was charmed with the broad simple landscape and would like to have spent some time there. When I arrived in New York Friday I went to Marys for I was feeling most desolate and unhappy. She had just come in from Rondout by the Powell. Had gone up to Hudson the day before to take Marion to meet Julia on their way to the Adirondacs, spent a few hours with Mary Gifford and came to Rondout and spent the night. We had a long and tender talk of dear Gertrude and she read me a letter from Gussie. In the evening she and Calvert and I called on Mrs. Gifford, Sanford being away salmon fishing. We found the Major & Julia there and Eastman and his wife came in. Eastman was surprised to see me back for he intended to join me but had not answered my letter. Saturday I packed my things and came home by the Cornell at 2 o'clock, Bowyer coming with me with a friend, Nichols, on their way to the Overlook and from there in the morning to Kauterskill Clove. It is so sad and forlorn here at home and I miss darling Gertrude so much that I cam sadder and more unhappy here than any where else. Now I almost wish I could have staid down there and if it were not for one thing I would go back for I feel that I could have got some subjects there and in many ways I was happier there than here. I went down to see Sam CoyKendall Sunday to ask his advice about my money affairs. He very kindly volunteered to lend me fifteen hundred dollars to be repaid at my convenience and this morning I went down to his office and got the money, paid a note which was due today and am going to New York tomorrow to pay my rent and shall pay our interest and some other things. But oh the sadness and loneliness here. Lucy has gone with Sedgewick leaving Jamie here. Dear Gertrude is gone never to return and the sadness of it all is almost insupportable. I have had a carpenter come to see about putting a new window in my studio over in my little house and if I do not go away again I shall try to get to work. I wrote to Weir on Friday night and to Gussie yesterday. My father and I visited the frigate Minnesota this morning. She is a school ship and lies out at the mouth of the creek.